2007-12-22

Coming across students on the bus tonight

Being a teacher, which was originally my dream-to-come when I was young, somehow had been realized, and has found its way into my life for years. I love the time being with students, hoping to share something good for them with them. I hope that students can always get something beneficial from me, and it proves me my hardship is worthwhile while seeing even their making little progress either mentally or acdemically. From time to time, I am wondering how my students are doing since they've graduated from school and the time we aparted from each other.

Taking the bus home tonight after going shopping in Taichung, to my surprise, 翔穎, a working hard senior high school girl, said hi to me. She is going back home after taking classes in the atelier. It's great to know how she spent her weekend and interesting to know how she felt of the day. We also talked a lot about her future expectation and plans for now and coming yeras. It's so impressive to see students have such profound ideas of themselves.

Meanwhile, to my surprise again, I saw a girl whose face seemed familiar standing on the aisle and then sat down in front of us. It occured to me that she seemed to be the girl I taught two years ago in my teaching internship year. And she should be the univiersity freshman this year. Being wondering if she is the girl I knew since she should go to univeristy somewhere but not here after 翔穎 got off the bus, and being about to wisper her name behind her, meantime she turned around smiling at me.

"紫涵 is it you?" I called her name out unbelievingly. What a suprise and coincidence! She said that she recognized me when getting on the bus at once, and she knew that I was talking to my student by listening to our conversation carefully. She goes to univeristy out side of the hometown, and she doesn't come back home often due to the distance and school life.

This experience encountering students reminds me of once I ran into anotehr student 承意 who should be sophomore in the university. That was one afternoon I went back to PU visiting my professor after my graduate thesis oral. It was to my surprise when I went passed by her, and we both stopped and gazed at each other for seconds before I cried out her name and she recognizd me out. We were both extremely surprised cause I was just her substitue Engilsh teacher when I was studying at teh graduate school. After that we talked over phone for several times.

Some sweet students who graduated from school still stay in touch with my by calling and telling me how's their lives going or by making appointment with me to have a cup of tea or meal together some time when I am free. It's great to see they beceom mature and lead their life with self-confidence and hope.

Encountering students always makes me feel excited and warm especially when they came to say hi without any hesitation since I value the time being with them and miss them all the time leading my life. I hope all babies are all good with everything after they left high school, and hope that some day they can realize how much care and love I gave them desperately. I believe that I would feel things are all worthwhile when I was informed by students themselves voluntarily about what's new of them.

By the time the school starts to do the final count down for the third grade students, I notice myself to the final count down of their graduation and leaving for another brilliant stage of life. It will be another approaching of lengthy or even eternal separation after two years getting together so closely. So next time, dear babies, BE sure to say hi to me whenever and wherever you see me. Don't be afraid that I don't know you though I might forget your names (I would surely recognize your face if you let me know which high school you went and when we met, and I would try my best to recollct your names.)

At last, I'd love to have my prose written one year ago, and messages on the message board three years ago posted as the lively record of my remeberance of my teaching years.

ps.
謝謝去年(96年)12月佩勳邀我回學校參加校慶。
拜訪那些非常照顧我一年的同事與長官們,
還有見見我所想念的寶貝們。
時間過的真快,當初的電一乙都長大了。
去年參加同事的婚禮,
看到一個個成熟又個頭變高的大寶貝
跟著佩佩參加婚宴,
讓我又驚又喜。
電二甲的寶貝們今年都已經是大一的學生了!
謝謝電三甲寶貝們的卡片,
祝你/妳們在未來的人生旅途順利愉快。
也謝謝巧手的博隆送的超可愛精緻串珠熊。
(你如果擺攤兼差,我會第一個捧場哦~
不過還是先好好享受大一生活吧!)
很高興在今年暑假見到更成熟的(本來就很成熟)宇廷

愈來愈幽默(本來就很幽默開朗)的博隆
還有愈來愈有自信的柏竣。
我們拍了有趣的相片以及大頭作回憶。

謝謝體貼的莉涵常常打電話來敘舊,
讓我知道妳畢業後的近況與心情,
並通知且邀請我回學校參加校慶。
可惜我近鄉情怯,
還麻煩妳幫我問後其他同事長官了。
我永遠都忘不了妳的真誠與學習新事物的努力。

雖然跟惠文的學生只有短短相處一個月,
還有二中119的寶貝們
(真可惜當初帶論文實習,總是忙得昏頭轉向。)
卻也是我開啟教書生涯的最重要的轉捩點。
雖然已經沒了連絡,
但你/妳們當時的全力支持與細心體貼
(這也就是我看到紫涵跟之前巧遇承意這麼激動的原因。)
(當然還有現在的603, 606,去年的403,跟今年的 407囉。
所以巧遇翔穎真讓人開心~)
讓我更有動力與信心往以教學為志業這條路邁進。

(當然,
所有一路走來照顧我的長官/實習輔導老師與同事們
對你們的感謝與感恩是筆墨難以形容的!謝謝!^^)

94學年度 霧農結業式的不捨
前言:自從當了老師之後,我不再是高中時同學口中暱稱的小自閉,

我開始變的囉唆,思路與語言也變的比較不精簡...

這天下午,我一如往常地在公車牌邊發呆邊等公車回家,
一如往常地背著我上班的包包,
一如往常地拿著一個多餘的手提袋(隨身雜物太多),
不同以往的是手上的兩束花還有幾張大卡片。

公車來了,我一如往常的刷了我的E卡通,
然後找了個位子坐了下來,望著愈來愈遠的校門口,
我突然察覺,這是我最後一次從學校撘公車離開了,
下一次這樣在校門口撘公車下班會是什麼時候?

因為這天是結業式,你們都先回家了,公車上好安靜。
沒有人假冒陌生人跟我搭訕,「妳介意我坐在妳旁邊嗎?」
沒有人大聲宣傳「那個是我的英文老師..」
沒有人湊過來說「老師,這是我們今天做的麵包,
給妳,記得要給我加分喔!」
沒有人語帶威脅地跟我說「欸,看我對妳那麼好,
留給妳一個位子!坐!」
沒有人在我在公車上昏昏欲睡時大聲地跟我說
「老師再見」

望著花束卡片發呆的我,心情開始down了下來,
我好高興我結束了我的代課不安的生活,
但我好難過因為一個新的開始,我必須要跟你們告別。

謝謝電二甲酷酷的小老師彥熙酷酷地將你們的大卡片交給我,
雖然卡片中大部分都是希望我別當你們。這是第一波催淚彈。
謝謝宇廷的打油詩與博隆的小小雪瑞納與畫作。
謝謝電二甲信德老師的無限度支持與打氣。
我永遠不會忘記你們的貼心與認真又開心的上課表情。

當你們的佩佩導仔領我到禮堂時,你們的花束與卡片讓我驚叫連連,
還好我是很ㄍ一ㄥ的,這個第二個大催淚彈差點兒讓我現出原形,
真的謝謝電一乙的你們的美麗花束與卡片,
(當然也要謝謝你們最最細心又有小小江湖味兒的
美麗又可愛的佩佩導師),與過去一年來最最最耍寶又貼心的
你們帶給我的歡樂,包括把雨傘肢解成骨架與「裙子」,
還有從你們的後花園--學校池塘--中抓來的孔雀魚,
當然我也不會忘記總是能從我垃圾堆般的抽屜
找到考卷與講義的佳翰與仁傑「大」老師:)
請保守我的亂抽屜的這個秘密。

還有也要謝謝後來「借花獻佛」的農一。
我不會忘記農一的你/妳們的純真可愛,
看著你/妳們一天比一天認真、一天比一天進步就讓我很感動。
謝謝時常勸我要兇一點的小老師其勳跟總是微笑的小老師芳榕。
謝謝暗地裡默默幫忙我與提醒我可以「殺無涉」的金泉師。

離開禮堂後的食加男孩女孩們的揮手與追問
「老師,妳還會回來嗎?」
「老師,我們什麼時候還會再見到妳?」
「老師,這是妳最後一天在學校嗎?」
與新雅、尹亭的擁抱差點讓我飆淚,
我盡全力偽裝出我的招牌式笑容,
希望能藉此掩飾我心中的不捨,
「會的,我們一定會再見面!」我說
「真的嗎?什麼時候?」妳們問
「我......要加油喔!」我答不出來

食加二的男孩與女孩的乖巧貼心與無辜的表情
總讓我不忍責備也沒有理由責備。
你們總是很主動地把該做的事情做好,
用認真的表情與微笑看著我,然後認真地抄筆記。

學期末了,我對面的老師問我,
「妳好像都沒罵過食加二吼?」
我想了想,沒錯,
你們的乖巧與貼心讓我寵你們都來不及了,
怎還忍心責備呢?

謝謝貼心又細心的小老師惠珍這一年來的協助,
很難過最後我們還是沒見到面。
謝謝機一乙盡責的小老師常峰與育瑋到學期末
還是一如往常地到辦公室來詢問有沒有要幫忙宣布的事情。

這一年來,我曾以為當老師最大的辛苦之處
就僅止於每天上課講話很傷喉嚨,
每天站著上課很傷膝蓋,
但我這天才發覺,老師不但要有很多愛,
也要有充分的strength來經歷許多的不捨與分離。
才跟學生相處一年就讓我難過了老半天,
我還沒有辦法想像,在未來的幾十年,
我要面對多少的不捨與分離。

大家都說,學生說「老師別走」只是說說而已,
老師別太認真看待,因為老師只是學生生命中的過客罷了,
但情感豐富的我,還是很傻地相信學生的話,
而讓自己難過不捨許久。

我想,就像在過去我曾遇見的好老師一般,
我期許自己是一個讓學生自由停靠的避風港,
讓學生自由來來去去,但也希望學生能時常回航。
再見,我相信我們一定能再見面,
謝謝大家,也祝福大家。
2006/06/30

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超級大大綠

老師...雖然這個星期一"或許"

是你最後一次上我們班的課~
但是我們歡迎你隨時回來找我們唷~~:)
你教的真的很不錯唷!
p.s:可以考慮八月跟我們一起去畢旅唷!
by 506某小妹
2004-06-23 00:29:51



老妙

To Dear 超級大大綠(為什麼是大大綠啊?):
我覺得我應該謝謝超級可愛又貼心的506的
妳/你們啦~跟你們相處這一個月我覺得非常愉快!!
:D還有非常謝謝小老師跟幾位同學昨天
拿給我506的"催淚彈"卡~~真的是太太太感動了!! @-@
我昨天早上收到學校的通知要監考,
應該還有一次跟你們見面的機會~~ ^^
畢旅? 真滴嗎?? 我讀高中的時候還沒有畢旅呢!!
殘念!不過我七月一日要開始實習~~
不知道有沒有這個機會...謝謝妳的邀請囉!!:))
祝 期末考順利~~
ps. 還有如果有任何課業或生活的問題,
如果妳/妳你們覺得我可以幫的上忙的,
都歡迎跟我聊聊喔!!

應該把名字改成"老妙"的真小妙的不像老師的老師留:)
2004-06-24 11:33:26